A New Life Without You

很担心..

2010-11-19T08:40:00.000-08:00

妈妈生病了..出生到现在从来都没有看过妈妈现在这个样子的..妈妈真的看起来很没有精神..就是这个样子就令人更担心了..妈妈突然间血压飙高，已经是超越了极限,医生说再不降就要进医院..因为医生说血压过高时会导致中风的..二姐听了偷偷得流泪..而我呢？我能为妈妈做些什么吗？我也很担心..如果能够让妈妈好回有以前那么精神的话,我真的不去学人家吸烟那些了..我答应会乖乖..做她心目中的乖女儿..妈妈,我不想你有事..赶快好起来..我陪你去你想要去的地方..我陪你去买菜..我陪你去买日常用品..妈妈,你要听话多喝水,吃多点有营养的食物..远离咖啡..这些都是我不敢亲口对你说的话..你要知道我是很担心也很关心你的..

2010-10-20T11:10:00.000-07:00

had a bad mood these few days.. what happened to myself??? im wondering.. Can i live in a happy life?? I'm not really happy to my life right now.. just feel tired n boring for that.. I'm working hard for nothing.. I'm working hard for who?? why that's not myself??? Can i just ignore you?? Can i have fun without any permission??? I'm headache, gastric n really not feeling well.. ><

2010-06-24T20:28:00.000-07:00

不知道自己心里面其实想怎样。虽然已经是习惯和其他人暧昧，可是对于你我就是不懂我们到底是什么。我的心很乱，你每传一封信息都能触动我的心啊。只是我在犹豫我是不是真的对你有感觉？
我的心就像有一个天使一个恶魔。天使告诉我要看清楚现在的情况，别乱来，可能他真的只是当你是好朋友。恶魔说别想那么多啦，他是真的对你有意思了，难道你看不出来吗？你真的觉得只是朋友那么简单？感情这回事我从来不敢那么有信心，因为我不敢主动去争取，我根本就没有能力吧。我选择别人，别人也会选择我吧。而且我并不是什么美女，那就更加不用说吧。
每一次开电脑我都会像开音乐来听，可是一旦开歌，我就会选很多我曾经听你唱过的歌曲。可是我却不懂我是不是真的对你动心了。

雨都停了天都亮了
我们还不懂
这爱情路究竟带我们到什么地方
是要持续仍旧珍惜
还是回到原地
如今此刻的我
的确是有一点疲倦

最近

2010-06-15T09:46:00.000-07:00

最近都在过很有压力的日子，突然间我的世界有了很多改变，仿佛像掉进另一个世界那样。很多习惯了的东西突然改变，就像习惯的工作伙伴突然哦哦间调走了。她们说压力是在所难免的，人是要有压力才会成长，是吗？我真的累了，开始厌倦这样的生活了，精神上就快要支撑不住了。可是又有谁是真正的了解我？还会有谁能够一直陪在我身边，听我诉诉苦，让我躺一躺，还会有谁会借肩膀让我靠？大家都各忙各的，就连朋友都很少联络了。曾经说是好朋友，好姐妹的都开始大家各自去找自己的未来了。我知道我必须学会独立，就算没有人陪伴也要安然度过，这样才算是个勇敢的人，是这样吗？有人曾经告诉我，没有人能够陪你一辈子，就算是情人或是朋友。当时我只是认同情人是不会一辈子和你厮守到老的，我却坚信朋友是一辈子的承诺，是不会有自私的。看来天平座的我是多么的天真。我体会到一个人的滋味，是多么的孤单寂寞。一直以来我都告诉自己。一个人过也很好啊，不用去依靠别人，自己养活自己。其实心里一直很渴望有人能够陪在我身边照顾我，哄我，让我依靠。也许是我自己一而再，再而三的错失这些机会吧！想要后悔却来不及了。最近的心情都很低落，不知道要怎么样去解释这种心情，我相信也没有人动我现在怀着怎样的心情，因为渐渐的没有一个人能够真正的了解我内心深处到底是什么感受。有时候对于自己的决定很不放心，我是不是太累了？我觉得很多事情都很不如意，我开始想逃避了。对于自己的生活，自己的情感真的不懂得要如何去处理。我真的累了，我需要时间去休息休息，直到充完电为止。

2010-06-13T16:04:00.000-07:00

自从离开了读书的学期后，我从没那么早起床。今天是我第一次那么早起床，六点多很不甘愿的爬了起来，很多借口让自己睡多一下下。我真的累了。是精神上的累，也是肢体上的累。我太久没有好好的休息了，一直都有很多事情发生让我的休假一而再，再而三的取消了。口头上我是说没关系啊，可是我真的挨不住了，超人也需要时间休息啊，况且我不是超人。很怀念以前有时间疯癫，有时间休息的日子。很怀念读书的时候。

2010-04-10T09:15:00.000-07:00

搞不清楚自己到底想要的是什么。。这几天的心情只能说是在后悔当初的执著，后悔着当初的放弃，我。。。真的很笨。为什么我会这么笨？悔不当初啊。。现在人家都不在乎了才来怀念。。我知道一切都变得多余了。。才知道真的要等失去后才懂得珍惜。。别人都在唸我，我的心真的好酸啊。。

2010-03-31T10:13:00.000-07:00

一寸光阴一寸金，寸金难买寸光阴。。算一算，我在midvalley也工作了一段时间啦。。我相信，很快的我就会调到去ioi mall的新店。。虽然这一切都是我自己要求的，没有的怨天怨地。。可是，一想到就要离开这个除了家以外的大家庭，心里就有一种很酸很不舍得的感觉。。我今天偷偷地流了眼泪，没有人知道，也没有人感觉到我的不舍。。离开了那里以后，就不能每天一起疯了，也不能在放工后一起去看半夜场了。。我知道，从前的月光也不会那么亮了。。=(

2010-03-12T09:54:00.000-08:00

这个就是病了一个多月的我。。没有血色，没有精神，没有味道的过了几个星期。。我到底还要挨多久呢？我真的不病累了。。从前是想没有什么生病过，想生病，可是现在反而我想健健康康地过。。最起码我可以吃我喜欢吃的东西。。不像现在，我已经没吃鸡两个星期多了。。好可怜噢。。><

2010-01-29T22:15:00.000-08:00

today is saturday.. is my off day too.. but im not that happy as last time.. I am not.. Im realize something changed.. it's not same as last time.. it make me uncomfortable, unhappy.. i din mention anything.. why u must think like this??? why u must do whatever u like in ur heart?? why u didnt think for other ppl??? do u know u changed to more ren xin???

2010-01-07T07:48:00.000-08:00

i very happy and relax since we finished promotion last week.. but quite boring adi la.. everyday do the same thing.. thinking want to have a change.. hehe.. should i give him a chance to know me more?? should i just give him a chance?? he's quite good actually.. XD i just don't know how to face him.. maybe he too good.. lolx..

2009-12-29T09:29:00.000-08:00

hmm.. such a busy life recently.. im fall sick almost 1 week.. but stil the same.. maybe lack of love and caring.. lolx.. nonsence.. XD haiz.. life is just boring.. everyday do the same thing.. wake up, eat, work, eat, rest and then sleep.. >< should i take a change in my life?? should i learn some nail art? although that's not so good.. but except that what can i do? i just not very happy..

2009-12-18T09:04:00.000-08:00

bought a new laptop for 2 weeks but never think want to post something up here.. hmm.. i'm too busy.. i noe there's no one to read my blog.. but nevermind. there's just a place for me to say something sad, trouble n worries.. nowadays, im quite moody n emo.. duno why.. just wil simply scold people n shout at the people that i don't like.. even the people i like i also wil do like this.. why? i duno why also.. til the day my dear wei came my shop n find me break.. i was happy to met her up.. hmm.. the feeling not bad.. i stil received an earlier x'mas present from her.. my favourite chocolate.. haha.. since that time.. i noe she care me.. i noe she worry me alot.. i was happy to noe still got somebody were there n care me.. however, i hope i wil b strong tat everyone wil confident to me when i do something else.. im not weak u noe? i can face any problem.. but i just need sometime to do that.. haiz.. say truth, not that happy and enjoy on my work anymore.. mayb is bcoz of people's communication problem.. well.. everyone dun like me.. mayb they think im close with may yee n sally then i wil say them about bad.. but seriously, im not goin to do that lo ok? childish.. whatever i said it's wont make them in trouble lor.. may yee n sally wont so easy to believe what i said lo.. u too they no brain ah? please la girls, dun be so childish.. just be mature ok? and i will just start to be a bad girl.. because i noe mayb im too friendly n kind.. everyone was bully me.. mayb im not fierce enuf.. but if i was fierce they dun like me.. n just show the 'black' face to me.. what can i do? just tell me.. i gonna be crazy.. i just dun wan to work so unhappy.. where's last time pang wai jiun??? i cant find back tat pang wai jiun.. is she dead? or lost???!!! tml is my turn to get off day.. should i go out n walk around? or stay home n slp whole day? confusing ><

2009-11-19T22:14:00.000-08:00

今天是我姐的小不点满月，特地休假帮忙。这小不点真得很让人烦恼，吃饱又哭，大便又哭，小便又哭，很热又哭。。半夜水稻一半又哭，有时真的那他没办法。。还没介绍他呢，它名叫峰峰。真的是好可爱哦！！让你们看看他吧。。

可爱吧？

2009-11-13T01:01:00.000-08:00

haha.. peiyi.. i have no pc and laptop in home.. plus im busy on my work now.. how am i gonna to continue post blog to you guys? ><...
so sad ah.. i used those money i saved to buy laptop.. i very miskin right now.. haha..
who want to treat me eat? just give me a call.. i wil come out as soon as possible.. lolx..
pei yi.. miss u so much ah.. when u can hang out with me? haha.. im waiting u.. XD
not much things to write.. see u next time.. take care guys..

2009-09-29T06:03:00.000-07:00

Gonna start a new life from now..
i have to train myself to live without you.. i know u may angry me right now.. i don't care all that anymore.. i wish you have a new life too.. do well in ur studies, have a better life and all the best.. anyway, thanks for care me n belong with me 10 months.. i was happy to be with you before.. all the memories i will keep inside my heart.. i will never forget what you have done to me.. i will never forget the actions and emotion that you do.. i will never forget the joke n laugh too.. thanks.. i want to live happy right now.. it doesnt mean that i forgot u already.. i hope we will still friend.. shall we??